Monthly Archives: September 2011

Under a Rock Today

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Today, September 11, 2011, I am under a rock. Or at least I want to be.

It is very hard to describe why I want to check out today, ten years after the heinous attacks that occurred in New York City, Arlington, Virginia, and who-knows-the-intended-location for the plane that crashed in Shanksville, Pennsylvania.

The local and national media have been droning on and on about the ten year anniversary of these events (it is not one thing — not “9/11”!) I tell ‘ya, I just don’t want any more reminders of that tragic day in America’s history. I truly regret that so many people were killed by senseless acts of terrorism and am sorry for the families and loved-ones of those who died, including the brave rescuers who were trying to save lives but lost their own.

I did not lose anyone in those attacks, yet I was personally affected — permanently. I spent months in New York after the attack there from mid-September, 2001, through the following March providing direct long-term assistance. The personal stories, the sights, and even recollection of the smell (of burnt electrical insulation from the buildings that were destroyed)… all of that haunts me to this day. That is why I plan never to go back to New York City… too many bad memories.

Why do I want to be under a rock today? Mostly to deal with my own memories and observe my own way of recognizing those who died and their families in a respectful way. But that’s it. I do NOT want to see images again of the attacks, the destruction, the buildings on fire or collapsing, or of the people and families affected. It just hurts too much — plus, the media hypes stuff up so much to get ratings that they lose all meaning of what a respectful recognition should be.

I’m done. September 11, 2001, is a date which will live in infamy, even if the rest of the world still calls it 9/11 and forgets about it on 9/12.

Further, another reason that I want to check out today is that my Mom died on September 11, 1998. This date has many bad memories for various reasons, and I would rather remember my Mom’s warm smile, her touch, and her lessons than any darn stuff that the media may be doing.

Life is short: remember those you love, and show them that you love them.

Is It Hard for a Gay Guy to be Straight?

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This question, worded exactly as written, “Is it hard for a gay guy to be straight?” was entered into a search engine and landed on this blog.

I have written many posts over time about being gay, yet behaving in a masculine manner which some gay men call “acting straight.”  I am not an actor. I behave the way I do because that’s who I am.  I know there are some gay men who “butch up” on occasion — to act “more straight” in certain situations.  I am not like those guys. I am who I am.

Meanwhile, back to the question — my answer is, “yes, it’s damn hard — impossible — for a gay guy to ‘be’ straight.”   If you’re gay, you’re gay — homosexual — attracted to the same sex.  If you’re straight, then you are heterosexual and attracted to the opposite sex. 

Contrary to what some Bible-thumping wackos affiliated with some fringe groups think or say, it is not possible for a guy who is truly homosexual to be or become straight.  Just doesn’t work.  Won’t happen.  Expose the gay guy to fringe-wacko therapy to try to convince him not to “be” gay, and likely the gay guy will be ripe for long-term therapy to recover from such exposure and to regain his sanity.  Seriously — it’s that bad, and that detrimental.

But perhaps that is not what the writer of the question was asking.  Perhaps he was asking, “is it hard for a gay guy to ‘act’ straight?”  In that case, it’s different.  For some of us (gay men), it is not difficult to behave like straight guys do, because that is how we are and how we are wired.  But for the gay man who is effeminate, it will likely be harder for him to behave in a masculine manner.  I won’t delve into stereotypes. Let me just say that I know some gay guys who could pull it off and some who could not.  We’re all different. 

But let me reaffirm my understanding from science that if a guy is gay, he was born that way.  He did not “choose a lifestyle.”  Heck, when did you “choose to be straight?”  It just doesn’t work that way.  You’re gay, you’re gay.  You’re straight, you’re straight.  So be it.  How you behave is often what others use to judge whether you are (or are not) gay.  It’s sad that people make these judgments, but they do.

My advice:  be who you are; be comfortable in your own skin; keep thinking that you are a valuable person and other people’s opinions of your behavior are their problem, not yours.  I know that is hard to accept by some people, but let me affirm:  once you achieve this level of self-awareness, then a “whole new you” is revealed. For me, it was a man who was confident, self-assured, and calm. 

Final thought on the question — is it hard for a gay guy to “be” straight?  Yes.  It is hard for a gay man to “be” comfortable with himself if he continues to live in the closet and hide his sexual identity from himself, his family, and his friends.  I know there are reasons why gay men do that, which have a lot to do with keeping a job in many cases and self-preservation in others.

But it is far more difficult for a gay guy to “be” something he is not. 

Life is short:  be who you are.

Biker Boots on a Budget

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Someone sent me an email asking, “if you could only get one pair of motorcycle boots, what would it be?” He complimented my boot collection and suggested that I make a video to demonstrate my response to his question.

This is a very hard question to ask a guy who has as many pairs of motorcycle boots as I have.

I narrowed it down to three choices, which all happen to be made by Justin Brands under the Chippewa Boots banner here in the United States:

1. Traditional Chippewa Harness Boots — Style 27868

These boots are rugged, solid, well-constructed, and a great value for the money. They have a Vibram 430 lug sole which provides decent traction. Harness boots are about the most ubiquitous (common) boots that bikers in the U.S. wear. Chippewa harness boots are made in the USA, and bargains for them abound — usually around major holidays. (If you haven’t seen it already, check out my video where I do a comparison of four different makes of motorcycle harness boots).

2. Traditional Chippewa 17″ Engineer Boots — Style 27909 with steel toe; 27908 without a steel toe

Engineer boots are also a very common choice that bikers wear. These boots are also available in a shorter (11″) version, but I prefer the taller variety because tall boots provide better protection for the whole leg, instead of only the lower leg and ankle. The boots come with a regular nitrile (rubber) sole, which provides moderate traction. They are also unlined, so they will sag at the ankles, but that adds (in my opinion) to the overall character of the boot.

3. Chippewa Firefighter Boots — Style 27422

I would be remiss if I failed to mention the boots that I like to wear often when I ride my Harley. Chippewa Firefighter boots are not often considered by bikers, but they should be. They are very solid and sturdily built, as their primary users are wildland firefighters. What I like most about these boots is that they are very comfortable — suitable for an all-day ride. While they are leather-lined, they don’t get hot. Their Vibram 100 lug soles provide superb traction. I have been recommending them for years, and stand behind that recommendation. Great boots — a bit more expensive than their traditional biker brothers listed above, but to answer that email — if I had to pick only one pair of boots for use while riding my motorcycle, what would that be? Chippewa Firefighter Boots, feet-down (I would use the American expression “hands-down,” but I haven’t found a pair of boots to fit my hands and still let me type LOL!)

Here is the video that I produced that puts what I wrote above into a visual explanation:

Most Common Cowboy Boot Heel Style

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An interesting search landed a visitor to my most-visited web page, wearing cowboy boots.

The question was, “what is the most common heel style for everyday wear on cowboy boots?” It was searched by someone in Texas, where cowboy boots are worn often.

Generally, there are three heel heights on cowboy boots — a walking heel, which is about 1″ (2.5cm); a riding heel, which is about 2″ (5cm); and a heel height that splits the difference and is about 1-1/2″ to 1-5/8″ (3.8 to 4.1cm) high.

As far as heel style goes — walking (roper) heels are usually flat and blocky, with little if any slant. Riding heels are usually what’s called “underslung.” That means that the heels are larger at the place where they are attached to the sole and taper to a smaller size at the bottom. However, unlike high heels on women’s shoes, underslung cowboy boot heels usually have a fairly large area at the bottom, rather than taper to a point.

Walking heels are found on boots like ropers which are very commonly worn in the U.S. West and Midwest. Ropers are affordable and easy to wear while walking or working.

Cowboy boots worn for riding (a horse) are usually about 2″ (5cm) high and are usually underslung (tapered). These heels make it easier to hold the boot in stirrups and control a horse. However, heels of this height are harder for men to walk in. Most men are unaccustomed to wearing “high heels.” Also, some men are afraid to wear higher heels because of their fear of ridicule or labeling, but I won’t go there….

The vast majority of traditional cowboy boots split the difference, and have heels that are half-way between a walking heel and a riding heel. Various bootmakers call this heel height by different names — cowboy heel, low riding heel, or walking heel even. Regardless of what it may be called, heels of this height are the most common (to answer this question). These heels also usually taper slightly from the where it meets the sole to the bottom where it meets the floor — but the tapering is minor in comparison with a true underslung heel.

This traditional heel height allows for pants (trousers) or jeans to stack (fold) softly across the foot of the boot and not come down below the place where the back of the leather on the foot is attached to the heel. If pants come lower than that, then they can become worn and frayed at the edges.

It is also easy enough for most men to learn how to walk in boots with a heel of this height. Men who do not wear boots often may at first have some trouble walking in boots with this heel height. Sometimes, men may miss a step (that is, catch the heel on a step because he did not raise his foot high enough to clear the heel on the next step.)

One thing to note as well about the physics of cowboy boot heels, besides how the height affects walking, is how the height affects sound. Generally speaking, the higher the heel and the more mass (size) it has, the more sound the heel will make on the floor, sidewalk, or pavement. Think about it something like a drum — the bigger the size of the drum, the more deep, resounding sound it makes. About the same thing is true for cowboy boot heels. That’s why many men’s dress cowboy boots have rubber sole plates on them — to dampen the sound.

Hearing the sound of a “cowboy boot clunk” is music to some guys’ ears and an annoyance to others. I know some guys who have replaced a rubber sole plate with a wooden one they made themselves, so their boots can be heard! I know other guys who have a cobbler install a double-sole plate made of soft rubber, to dampen the sound. It really varies. (What do I do? I leave my boots the way they come. If they clunk, that’s fine. If they don’t, that’s okay with me, too.)

So now you know — what is the most common cowboy boot heel style? A heel that is slightly slanted, but not deeply underslung, and of a height that is about 1-1/2″ to 1-5/8″ (3.8 to 4.1cm).

Life is short: wear cowboy boots!

Web Hosting Challenge Resolved

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With regret, I had to abandon Hurricane Electric to serve as the host for my bootedman.com website and migrate it to another web host. I say that I regret having to take this action because I have been very loyal to Hurricane Electric and they’ve been very good — until now.

Originally, I started to create this website using so-called “free” hosting by my ISP. But I learned quickly that the ISP was very slow and cumbersome to use. After about four months of struggling with the ISP’s hosting, I talked about it with Larry and his husband Bill of hotboots.com. Bill is a real whiz when it comes to this stuff, and gave me some good advice. Both Larry and Bill recommended Hurricane Electric to host a site. Hotboots.com is hosted there and Larry has had nothing but praise for their reliability of service. So I purchased web hosting from them in April, 1996, and “bootedman.com” was born.

Man, a lot has changed with that site over five and a half years. I also have learned a lot more in my self-taught manner on how to write web pages including HTML, PHP, and javascripts. What took me an hour to do in 2006 takes just a few minutes today — and that’s good because I do not nearly have as much time to tinker with it as I once did.

As of the time I am writing this post, the server at Hurricane Electric that hosted bootedman.com just came back on-line after a 60-hour-plus outage. Such a shame. By their own admission, they have never had such an extended period of having a server be off-line.

H.E. has about the best Customer Support in the business — always available by phone and responsive to email. Even throughout our Labor Day weekend, they still had someone who would take a call, even if he could not help me much and did not have any answers as to the nature of the problem with their server.

Fortunately, I kept a complete off-line backup of the website, so I was able to upload it to another host. That took eight hours–it’s a huge site with 500 individual pages that all are internally linked, over 360 pages on the “Boots Wiki” knowledgebase, and over 8,300 images.

Now I am doing a lot of background checks, correction of missing links and pics, and other details. The site is working again, as is my email on that domain. I regret having to make this migration and make it permanent, but I was left with no choice.

Life is short: don’t let loyalty get in the way when it comes to making business decisions.

Is It Gay to Wear Boots Without Jeans?

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Here we go again: someone searched, “is it gay to wear boots without jeans?”

Hmmm… this could be taken a number of ways. Possibilities:

1. Ignorant child who uses the term “gay” to mean “lame”. Answer: no, it is not lame to wear boots with other types of clothing, such as breeches (ask a cop), khaki or other “dress casual” pants for work (ask an office worker in the summer), BDUs (ask anyone in the military), or leather (ask a biker.)

2. You are homophobic, and are afraid that someone else might call you “gay” because you may choose to wear boots with different types of pants (such as listed in #1). Answer: there isn’t much I can do for your troubled soul other than to pray that you will grow up some day.

3. You might be considering wearing boots with no other clothing. Answer: please don’t. I don’t want to see you naked in boots any more than you want to see me that way.

Life is short: wear boots with pants (including jeans, khakis, suits, breeches, BDUs… you get the point. Anything but your bare butt and you’ll be fine.)

Significant Server Outage

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I am dismayed and extend apologies to visitors of my “bootedman.com” website because it has endured significant outages due to problems of some sort at the host, Hurricane Electric. My site was not available for over eight hours on the night of August 30 through the morning of August 31, then again on September 4 it became unavailable at 5am (my time) and is STILL DOWN on Monday! Worst friggin’ outage I have observed, ever.

It seems like Hurricane Electric has had minor outages happen every now and then, but nothing this long. Short outages of a couple hours have happened to me before and I have grumbled about it to the extend that they migrated me to another server.

I know I am sharing a server with other accounts, but this duration of unavailability of my website is truly a sad reflection on Hurricane Electric’s claims of reliability and up-time. I cannot afford nor want to pay for a dedicated server — heck, this is just a hobby site, after all. I am just disappointed and know that it is frustrating for visitors to get a “not found” or “timeout” error when they try to visit my website.

Again, I’m sorry this happened. It is beyond my control. Hopefully, H.E. will get get the problem fixed for the benefit of others who share that server. I regret that I have lost all faith and confidence in this web host, and have searched and found another one. I will move my site and reconfigure required files. What a pain in the ass.

Life is short: If you are looking for web hosting, I suggest looking elsewhere.

Why Are Biker Boots So Tall?

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Google directed a question to my website that asks, “why are biker boots so tall?”

It is a rather simple answer: for safety. Tall boots that bikers wear come from a long tradition where men want their legs protected from two main hazards — heat from the engine and exhaust pipes, as well as from stuff that comes flying at the legs from the road. It’s amazing how much junk gets kicked up from the front tire, striking the legs at high speed. Gravel and rocks really hurt and can do a lot of damage when they strike the lower leg through thin cloth of denim jeans. (That’s also why many bikers wear chaps or leather — to protect the legs). The lower leg has a rather thin layer of skin over the shin bone. That thin skin is easily damaged and injured when struck by even a small piece of gravel, pebble, or stone that comes flying at you from the front tire.

Plus, in my opinion, tall boots look cool.

So that’s your answer to this question — tall boots provide protection to the fragile skin of the lower leg, and they also look cool on a biker.

Life is short: real bikers wear boots (not sneakers, sandals, or flip-flops).

Show Those You Love That You Love Them

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Hands2I frequently end this blog with a phrase, “Life is short: show those you love that you love them.” Whether it be familial love, spousal love, sibling love, neighborly love, or friendly love, there are people in your life who you care about, and doing things to demonstrate that you care about them in return is so incredibly important.

Why? Because life is short.
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Where Are the Leatherdudes?

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I received a message via Recon, which is a site that I seldom check any more, but have a profile there to maintain my “BHD” identity and to prevent others from using that identity and cause confusion.

Anyway, I was asked, “can you help me find someone who likes leather and help me to learn about the leather scene?”

Gosh, it’s been so long that I’ve engaged in that realm, I had to reply that I really don’t know.

These days, there are very few leather-oriented venues where guys gather on a social and frequent basis. Back in the 70s, 80s, and 90s, bars were the prime location to find other guys into this. These days, bars have been replaced by the internet, which comes with a completely different set of “rules” and methods of meeting other people. I’ve said before, I met my partner through traditional means — joining a club — long before the Internet was available to the masses.

I’m so old, stable, monogamous, community-oriented, and established in my suburban lifestyle that I have not gone out to a bar or attended events like IML, MAL, or Folsom in years. I have no intention of attending these events again. Been there, done that. Want some old t-shirts?

I’m not saying that there is anything wrong with going to IML, MAL, or Folsom. Fine for single guys or guys in relationships that they call “open”. My relationship is absolutely closed, including any potential for going out by myself to such events. I wouldn’t think of it. My partner is my life, and if he doesn’t want to go, and I’m too tired to go, then we don’t. That’s just how it is as a monogamous gay couple ages.

To try to answer this guy’s legitimate question, I suggested that he try to attend one of these events to meet other guys and perhaps attend workshops that may be offered. I’m not a fan of trying to find someone on-line, because there are so many posers out there who aren’t who they claim to be. You never really know who someone is until you meet them in person. (And if you do, be safe and meet in a public place. By all means, don’t invite someone you have not met to your home the first time you may meet!)

Where are all the leatherdudes? Well, in my humble opinion, there are three answers:

1. Like me, they have “aged out” of being interested any more in attending social events and don’t go. Unlike me, they probably have closets full of gear that they don’t wear any more. I wear my leathers regularly in my off-time as I go about my daily life. Heck, I’ve made such an investment in it, I don’t want it gathering dust in the closet or in a trunk, never used again. What a waste.

2. Some attend events like IML, MAL, Folsom, and a few other, smaller, lesser-known “runs” or gatherings. Check around. There may be one that you can attend.

3. The younger ones have morphed from buying and wearing leather to other types of fetish gear such as rubber, latex, etc. I don’t know much about that, as I’m not into that kind of gear or play. Face it, I’m an old-fashioned leatherdude and am not interested in less expensive alternatives to fetish interests.

I know this post hasn’t been much help to those seeking someone who can help them learn about the leather life in the gay community. I have been out of it for so long, I just don’t know.

Life is short: know who you are now and be okay with that.