The Fringe of Halloween

Boo! Happy Halloween. Well, actually, “Happy All Saints Day” (the day after, when this post will appear.)

For years, I have dressed up to give out candy to the kiddos who come to our door for Halloween. I usually wear some form of leather, and the past few years, I have worn a cop uniform.

This year, my partner wanted to be the cop, so I “went cowboy.” I wore my fringed black leather jeans with their matching fringed leather blazer, my black Stetson, and my Champion Attitude ‘firebird’ black cowboy boots with red inlays.

Yee-haw! Leather cowboy — my favourite mixture!

My partner and I did not go out to a party or anything last night. We never do. Even though it was a Saturday night and we don’t have to be up early for work today, we find that we are more interested in staying home and playing with each other rather than go to a party or something.

After the kiddos came and went (and there were bunches of them on a unusually warm and pleasant evening without predicted rain), I found out what “Officer Partner” had in mind. wink-wink. Got boots? Got leather? Have fun! (and be safe!)

Life is short: BOO!

What I Did On My Mini-Vacation

I enjoyed my rare day off yesterday, despite rainy crappy weather. I accomplished a lot:

  • I checked in on a few friends and found that blogger is misbehaving, not showing recent blog posts on this blog to some of the people to whom I link. Glad you’re okay, Roland.
  • I put on what I am going to wear for Halloween and took some pictures, but you will have to wait and see….
  • I wrote 20 blog posts which will appear here over the next few weeks.
  • I wrote the template code for a website for a 2010 political candidate for whom I am serving as webmaster. I am waiting for the candidate to send me the content to put in the various blocks.
  • I cooked and cooked. My man and I enjoyed a great meal last night featuring all my “home-mades” (pasta, tomato sauce, breads, and dessert)– lasagna, home-made dinner rolls, and a mixed side salad, finished with a tasty apple pie. (I admit that while I used six different apples to vary the flavors, I cheated and used a pre-made pie crust.)
  • I took my lovely 94-year-old aunt to lunch, just because… I love her so.
  • I scrubbed baseboards with Comet and a toothbrush. It won’t be long until Thanksgiving, and we anticipate another huge crowd of seniors.
  • I spoke with two brothers and three sisters on the phone. It was great to catch up!
  • I did the laundry so my partner doesn’t have to worry about it on the weekend.
  • I updated my website in several places, including photos of a new pair of CHP leather breeches.
  • I cleaned up and shined a pair of Bal-Laced Dehner Patrol Boots that needed some attention. I seldom polish boots, so this was a big deal for me!
  • I received a suggestion via email to take pictures of my black campus boots that look like Fryes. I learned recently that these boots were made by Boulet when I exchanged some email from the guy who sold them to me. I tried to pull those boots on, and realized why I had not updated photos of them: they were too tight on my calfs. I hauled out my boot calf stretcher and began the slow, deliberate, process of stretching the calfs of those boots. It will take about three weeks for each boot to do it permanently without damaging them. Check back around Christmas for updated pics!
  • I took a half-hour nap! Lazy, lazy, lazy!

A great day! I should do this more often! But to tell you the truth, I am looking forward to being back at work today. I am exhausted!

Life is short: have fun in boots, leather, with family, and take care of things at home. Spend the time to show those you love that you love them!

A Rare Day Off

I have been working a lot of extra time lately at my job, in writing huge reports and proposals then going on a three-day out-of-town trip. In exchange for all that time at work, keeping me away from my duties to my community, my partner, and my family, I have been given a rare mid-week day off today.

What am I up to? as you read this, I am probably tending to a number of things around home, my community, and perhaps updating my website. Whatever I am doing, I am doing it in boots and leather. You’ll see. I’ll tell ‘ya later….

Meanwhile, remember–

Life is short: wear your boots, wear your leather, and by all means, SMILE!

Pasta and Leather?

Here I am, in brown leather jeans and tall Wesco harness boots (you’ll have to trust me to know I had on tall boots)… running home-made pasta through the press attached to my mixer.

I love to “make my own” … pasta, bread, and other great stuff to eat. My partner and I enjoy doing this together. I roll out the pasta, cut it, and my partner applies egg white to the edges of the cut ravioli (the egg white serves as an organic “glue” to hold the pasta edges together). I put on some cheese filling, then fold the pasta onto itself.

There you have it: a raviol – o? (Is one piece of ravioli a “raviolo?” Hmmm, I have to check. Certainly, it’s not a “raviolus” since I have no evidence that Julius Caesar enjoyed this pasta dish LOL!)

We did this on Saturday afternoon after I got back from my homecoming visit with my college fraternity. I peeled off the black leather and put on the brown (I change boots and leather often.) It was really yucky weather outside that day, so it was a great time to stay inside and cook. I try to “batch cook” several dishes in advance and freeze them. Then we can still have a home-cooked meal during the week when preparation time is limited.

I also made another huge batch of “salsa del Guido” — it is Guido’s ‘secret recipe’ pasta sauce. (Guido is my chef inspiration). The sauce is great, and goes well with the ravioli, lasagna, stuffed peppers, manicotti… you get the idea. Umm, umm, umm…

Life is short: buon appetito!

765 Safer Homes

All day on Sunday, I carried out my annual project to ensure seniors remain safe: a cadre of some 70 volunteers and I visited 544 homes and replaced 700 batteries in their smoke alarms (some homes had more than one smoke alarm). We also replaced 65 smoke alarms that were over ten years old, which is the recommendation for when a smoke alarm should be completly replaced.

Two major home supplies retailers donated the batteries and smoke alarms. Another major restaurant chain donated pizzas for the volunteers who shared a joyful lunch with some local dignitaries who thanked our donors, the volunteers, and celebrated Fire Prevention Month. We appreciate the donations, even though we got 300 less batteries this year than last. (Honestly, due to the crappy economy, I was really worried that the donations would not come through this year.)

Being “football oblivious,” I had forgotten that the local football team was playing on Sunday afternoon. That’s why most of my volunteers wanted to work an “early shift.” That’s okay, it made for a much quicker and lighter afternoon. It was funny, when I went to an elderly man’s home to swap his smoke alarm’s battery, he thanked me several times for coming, and it was only when I was leaving that I realized why he was thanking me so much. He closed with, “I know you could be watching the game with your buddies, but instead, you’re doing this. Thank you!” I didn’t have the heart to tell him that I don’t care for football and did not even realize that there was a game being played, until someone told me about it.

What did I wear? I “went brown” since it is Autumn — brown sweatshirt, brown leather jeans, and my tall brown Wesco harness boots. Once again… I heard no comments about the leather, though one younger guy volunteering with us asked me about the boots.

Due to his disability, my partner didn’t run around to do installations with me, but instead, remained at the check-in site making sure the volunteers were all accounted for and had the supplies, directions, and release forms that they needed.

We were all done by mid-day. It was time to come home and have some hot chocolate. Man, even though it finally stopped raining, it was cold all day! My partner and and I were completely wiped out, but we felt great about doing this important civic volunteer work. Once again, everyone rallied to a great cause and carried out a huge project superbly, just like they did last year. It really makes me smile and feel good to know that so many people are safer.

Life is short: replace your smoke alarm batteries today!

Soggy Homecoming

Saturday, I went to a homecoming party hosted by my college social fraternity at my Alma Mater. Man, what a wet and miserable day. But at least it was only rain, and not snow as has been falling unusually early north of me.

I regret that I couldn’t ride my Harley to the fraternity house. It would have been easier to find a place to park, and “cooler” to arrive on such a ride. However, when it was only 43°F (6°C), raining, and with lots of wet leaves on the ground, even this hard-core biker knew his limits.

It was interesting to meet the new guys and to celebrate the rechartering of my old college fraternity which had closed in the ’90s and only recently was rechartered. They were friendly, greeted me warmly, and were deferential to this “old alum” by bringing me a burger and a Coke and making sure I was comfortable and welcomed.

I realized, though, how much I’ve changed, or should I say what the generation gap displayed. The guys were texting or had cell phones joined-at-the-ear. They had on rap music, and talked about their “techno rave” they had the night before and how much fun they had. I’m glad they had fun, though I told my partner when I came home that such an activity would not have been something I would have liked to do when I was their age. I guess I was born old.

How was I dressed? Well, unfortunately, all of the shirts and t-shirts that had my college fraternity name or logo on them are long-gone, so I wore a black shirt, leather vest, a pair of leather jeans and Chippewa Hi-Shine boots. As usual, no one said a thing about the leather. (I repeat this because some guys who read this blog and continue to tell me that they are concerned about wearing leather in public. Honestly, it is no big deal! Nobody cares!)

Life is short: renew the spirit and enjoy your memories (while doing it in leather and boots!)

Tests of Patience

I have returned from a weekend with the mother-in-law who lives near Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, USA. It is regretful to say, but each time I go see her, my patience is severely tested. In her worldview, everyone is out to get her and everything else that everyone else does is wrong.

I continue working on practicing what I preach. I smiled — so much so that my partner said, “be careful, your face is going to freeze that way!” (That’s a little joke between us.)

I prepared all the meals, which she ate with loud gusto. Umm, umm, lip-smackin’ good. (Noisy eating is common, unfortunately.)

I had to work on a big project for my employer, so I had to plug away at my laptop when I wasn’t doing something else. My patience was frustrated once again because I found that my collaborators — all over the United States — had documents and files they needed to share with me, but because my mother-in-law doesn’t have internet access and I’m too cheap to buy an air card, I just had to suffer without.

Unfortunately, riding in a car all that distance tested my patience in just being “cooped up in a cage” which is really my problem, no one else’s. My partner, on the other had, gets very stiff due to his disability. That makes him irritable and grouchy. He can’t gripe at his mother, so I’m the lucky one to hear some things that perhaps he wouldn’t say if he weren’t so sore.

Columbus Day weekend is always one that tries my patience. But I continue to remember what I blog about, and find an inner resolve somewhere deep inside me to accept what I cannot change and just go with the flow.

And you know what? Overall, I’m okay. I could have had a more productive weekend and less taxing on my nerves had I remained home. But then again, going with him to visit his mother is something my partner asks me to do only twice each year. He does so much for me otherwise. It’s only fair that I accommodate his interests and needs from time to time.

I have to say that I really appreciated the change in TV commercials. While I am not fond of television and don’t watch it at home (no time, no interest), my partner and his Mom had it on. I couldn’t help but notice the “regular” commercials, instead of the commercials run only on the DC television stations that try to influence votes in Congress on various issues. Or right now, additional commercials about the election for Governor of Virginia, which air in our market. All those commercials are awful and so darned one-sided; it was refreshing to hear something else for a change, and not all that political junk.

Life is short: grin and bear it!

Some Things I Have Learned

I found this on the Internet somewhere, but these sayings are so very applicable to me and many others I know:

I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles four things:

  • A rainy day, elderly people, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.
    • Rainy day: “oh boy! great time to catch up on reading!” or “let’s cook!”
    • elderly people: show those you love that you love them
    • lost luggage: I hope I get frequent flyer miles for its travel!
    • tangled Christmas tree lights: that’s why we now have a pre-lit tree (smile)
  • I’ve learned that making a ‘living’ is not the same thing as making a ‘life.’
    • My one year of ‘unemployment’ while spending time with my uncle during his last year of life was the best ‘living’ I have ever done.
  • I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.
    • …and third, and fourth… for all my foul-ups, those who care about me continue to extend more opportunities to learn from failure and to succeed eventually.
  • I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back sometimes.
    • I never learned how to use a catcher’s mitt anyway (smile)
  • I’ve learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you. But, if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others, your work and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you.
    • oh so true; happiness has found me, and I am blessed.
  • I’ve learned that a smile is a choice.
    • I decide to smile often. A smile may be the only sunlight a stranger sees all day!
  • I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.
    • This is where my heart leading the mind works wonders.
  • I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one.
    • It is easy to let aches and pains cloud what otherwise is a sunny personality. I take Excedrin and always remember to smile.
  • I’ve learned that every day, you should reach out and touch someone.
    • I send birthday cards to over 100 people throughout the year.
    • I check in on friends and family often by phone and email.
  • People love that human touch — holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.
  • I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn.
    • Oh, how true!

Life is short: show those you love that you love them!

I Am Who I Am

I received an email the other day, generated from this blog, which said, in part, “it is gratifying to know that there are decent, well adjusted, friendly gay men like you. Honestly, I have been struggling with ‘coming out’ for years. … Just wanted you to know that I have enjoyed your insights and interesting discussions in your blog. It has been quite therapeutic.”

Wow… who woulda thunk? I mean, I am just a regular guy with some specific interests and passions that a blog is well-suited to use as a medium to talk about those interests. Also, I just like to write 🙂

I am uncertain how my musings can serve to be therapeutic, but if it helps, I am happy to do so.

It really all boils down to one thing that makes me the man I am: my parents and family raised me well. They helped me to develop self-confidence and a self-assured nature. I was always a klutz, athletically disinclined, and more interested in reading books than throwing a ball. I saw my older brothers and other men in my life and wanted to be like them, but knew that I was different. I tried to do things that they did, like play sports or date women, but it never worked. And you know what? My family didn’t make fun of me or mock my failures. Instead, they accepted me for who I am and asked me, “what do you like? How can I help you fulfill your interests?”

Perhaps they didn’t ask questions exactly like that (I can’t remember), but I never once felt ridiculed for being “different.” I always felt loved and accepted for who I am. They let me try various things, and when it didn’t work out or I goofed up, they just smiled and said, “okay, let’s try something else.” Honestly, never once did I feel humiliated or belittled by my family.

Sure, there were bullies in school and short-sighted nobodies in my adult life who were insecure about themselves, and felt better if they could belittle me to make themselves feel bigger and better. Sometimes their actions hurt me, both physically and emotionally. But my family — and as an adult, my partner — always and without fail point out why they love me for who I am and that my inner strengths make me a better person overall, encouraging me to rise above the hurt and anger and respond with sympathy, kindness, and compassion.

Actually, it is intriguing to me as I look back that my family never said bad things about other people, but only highlighted the good things in me and others around us. Their optimism, sense of hope, and strong belief in me inspired and empowered achievements beyond my wildest dreams. I became who I am and achieved what I have done because of how they transferred their strength to me through positive support.

I realize how fortunate I am. Not everyone has a family like mine. Not every gay person lives in a community where diversity is a way of life, not something to be “celebrated” on a particular day of recognition. Not every gay guy has a partner who is his equal in intelligence, financial security, and savvy. Not every gay guy has friends he’s known for life (and some less long) who form the fabric of a rich net supporting him and his goals, failures, and fun regardless of his sexual orientation. Not every gay guy is appreciated by a cadre of seniors and neighbors for being “that guy who knows his stuff,” rather than “that gay guy …”. Not every gay guy works for an employer that evaluates him based on skills and abilities, and doesn’t make judgments based on sexual orientation. Not every gay guy is in a situation as I am to be able to “let go” and be who I am, out and open, free and honest, secure and confident.

In summary, I guess what allows me to be a decent, well-adjusted, and friendly guy is that I can freely be who I am. I can make mistakes, and be forgiven. I have learned to “let go” any concerns about what other people may say about me (boots, leather, being gay, or my appearance). I have learned that being honest (and not living in the closet) is absolutely refreshing and invigorating. I can learn, and adjust from my learning. I can do what I do best, and choose not to do what I don’t do well. And that’s okay. I am who I am.

Life is short: Love me for who I am, ’cause I am not someone else.

Martian Dinosaur

Ask twenty-somethings with whom I work, and each will tell you in her or his own way that I am a dinosaur from outer space. Here’s why:

  • I don’t text.
    I did not grow up with that communication method, nor find it easy to do. I have no need to be barraged with some text where the sender has an expectation of almost instantaneous response. I will reply to email or a phone message on my schedule, not someone else’s.
  • I ask them to call me on my landline at home if they need to use the telephone to reach me after work hours.
    What’s a landline? Who still has landlines? Why don’t you just use your cell phone?

    Well, I don’t have to give my personal reasons, but I prefer to use a regular old telephone, thanks. I often turn my cell phone off after work hours and do not use it on weekends, either. Call me, leave a message if I am unavailable, and I’ll get back to you.

  • I don’t tweet on Twitter, use Facebook, or use I.M. programs.
    “Oh, you’re so disconnected,” they say. Okay, so be it. It is much more peaceful and less intrusive that way. I don’t use computer resources at work for personal stuff when I should be working, and I expect them to do the same. My partner has an understandable expectation that I pay attention to him when we are at home, not the computer (so I have significantly reduced computer time at home.)
  • I don’t spend what I don’t have.
    My goodness, I observe many younger folks spend money like there’s no tomorrow, racking up credit card debt that they’ll never be able to pay off. My first suggestion for getting back on financial track is make a budget (what’s that?). Dump the cell phone and texting plan. There are so many people who have significant debt yet think nothing of paying US$50 to US$100 or more each month for cell charges. Buy groceries, learn how to cook, and eat at home. Pay off your debt before incurring more on an ongoing basis!

Yes, I definitely have that “generation gap thing” going on. I continue to work on and adopt technologies and ways of doing things that are helpful, but non-intrusive. I guess that’s where the major differences are: I am annoyed by multi-stream intrusions, and my younger staff live a multi-tasking life 24/7.

Life is short: disconnect for a while and enjoy peace!