Anniversary on the Calendar

My spouse and I were married on April 4, 2013. I took the day off from work today and…

…cared for him. He is not feeling well, is in a lot of pain, is fatigued, and by the end of the day, he can barely walk. He does not have much of an appetite, though he truly appreciates all the trouble that I go through to prepare meals to accommodate his special diet — which is mostly rabbit food.

Honestly, I wish I knew what rabbits actually ate that gave them so much energy. Vegetables, buckwheat, and gluten-free grains don’t cut it, and that is about all my spouse can eat. I make four-flour gluten-free waffles for him for breakfast, veggie snack for mid-morning, potato pizza (from scratch) for lunch, special crackers or baked goods for mid-afternoon snack, and protein (lean beef or chicken) with more vegetables for dinner. He eats, but his body is not processing it well.

Fatigue is one thing, but the pain is additional. He can barely move. The other day, he was trying to walk up a slight hill and fell. He cannot sustain his balance, much less muscle coordination to walk.

He can think clearly, and he is not angry or grumpy. Those symptoms can be a part of his illness — so at least there is some good news among the not-so-good.

Our marriage anniversary on Friday came and went. My spouse did not have the energy to consider going anywhere. I took the day off… and pretty much cooked for him, and held his hand.

So be it .. for richer or poorer, in sickness and in health… for better or worse, until death do us part. I said these vows when we married, and I mean it.

I have faith — ultimate faith — he will get better and we will do fun things together. Just not now.

Life is short: show those you love how you love them.

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About BHD

I am an average middle-aged biker who lives in the greater suburban sprawl of the Maryland suburbs north and west of Washington, DC, USA.